This post is not sexy or fun so definitely skip it if that's what you're looking for today. It about the health of my genitalia, again, definitely skip this if that's not what you feel like hearing at this moment in time, i don't even want to hear it right now so i definitely understand.
I generally have alot of fun in the gay boy hook up world. That is without a doubt.
However periodically as a result of all my play (sometimes more often than others) there are negative impacts to my health.
As a trans person, i do not like engaging with the health care industry, so when there are periods that i am at the health clinic weekly if not more, well its enough to say these are unhappy periods, particularly as i am often there due to some type of problem with my genitalia. Hope this isn't too much for folks but usually its related to something different with my vaginal discharge, general irritation or just feeling "not right" down there.
I'm sure given the nature of this blog folks are thinking STDs. Which is what i always think as well, and feel very stressed out and anxious about, but so far (fingers crossed, knock on wood) that has not been the problem.
I would say half the time the doctors have no idea what is wrong with me, test me for everything under the sun and eventually it just goes away (my best friend and i talk about how so little is known about the long term effects of testosterone on us and if some of it could be related), the other half its something like a yeast infection or urinary tract infection.
Clearly this experience around genital health is specific to me, my body, and my health, my best friend who plays as often as i do does not share in this experience he rarely has to go to the doctor. i hate him for it.
So recently i had this period where i was having a shit load of vaginal discharge, like copious amounts. It was very uncomfortable to say the least. this had happened to me before and when it happened before i got tested for everything under the sun and everything was negative. after some online research i said to my doctor could it be the lube i'm using - she looked surprised and said why yes, most certainly, in my head i thought really, we could have solved this a long fucking time ago. anyways so i switched lubes and was fine.
so this time around i knew it wasn't the lube as i hadn't made any changes. They tested me for every std, for bacterial infections, yeast, everything. Everything was negative. I would say for about 3 weeks i went to the health clinic weekly at least. Then one day it just stopped. Really. What the fuck.
I know this could have nothing to do with fucking but i feel like its likely related as i didn't use to have these problems when i was less sexually active. though i also know i am much more aware of the health of my genitalia due to all my play.
Furthermore in regards to my genitals, when I’m highly sexually active as I am now, whether its with one person in a committed relationship or multiple folks, I tend to get urinary tract infections. This really sucks.
I’ve been on testosterone for a long time so my doctor has said that may make me susceptible to them, along with the fact that I’m pretty sexually active and how I like to get fucked (i prefer pussy fucking). I’ve surfed the net and read about other Trans Guys with similar experiences.
I had this particularly bad experience when I could not get into see my regular doctor so I had to go to a 24 hour clinic that my doctor recommended. I was feeling very sick and just needed the meds so I went. The wait wasn’t that long thankfully, a nurse took me to a room and then gave me a cup to pee into, it all seemed like things were going well, then the doctor came in. older white guy, glasses, he asked why I was there. I said I’m pretty sure I have a uti, that I just had one three months ago, and I get them often. To which he said why are you getting UTI’s so frequently, they are pretty rare in males. I said, well I am transgender, female to male.
He looked at my blankly and said so you used to have a penis? I was like what the fuck! But I just said, I’m female to male, I was born female, but I’ve been on testosterone for a long time so I pass as a guy, but I have a vagina. In my head I was thinking what the fuck, this is not Adam4Adam or ManHunt.
I got the sense that either he didn’t believe me or he still didn’t get it. Cuz then he said well do you have any leakage? Which I could be wrong but seems more like a question about a dick. I said no. Then he said are you sure you don’t want me to take a look? I said firmly no. I got the sense he really just wanted to see what I had in my pants. I was feeling really sick, I know I should have made a complaint or something, but I really just needed the meds. Finally the nurse came back with the test and said it was a uti so he wrote me a prescription and I got the hell out of there.
After numerous trips to the Doctor for UTIs, there was a period where it felt like i was going every 2-3 months, I now have a routine and try to worry about it less. I always pee after sex and try to shower when possible, I take d-mannox and cranberry pills daily, I periodically insert a small amount of estrogen into my vagina (it doesn’t affect hormone levels but helps with thinning vaginal walls) and while I’m not happy about it after a particularly long or rough session I take a mild antibiotic after sex, I don’t like to be dependant on antibiotics but if I get a uti I’ll be on a heavy dose which is worse for my body. This has all worked so far.
so all this seems like alot of drama and stress just to get fucked. sometimes i wonder what the hell i'm doing. but its a balance for me. as a queer trans guy of color getting fucked and playing is about getting off and having fun but its also about loving and feeling empowered in my body. i just try to balance these positive health benefits with the negative ones.